The impulse to search is like the bite of the mosquito. It must be scratched. Why the mosquito chose you remains unknown.
It’s only after extensive scratching that you learn the futility of scratching.
The paradox is that most people have to begin by denying reality to the world, only to subsequently discern that the world is not other than oneself.
The withdrawal from the finite in order to achieve a re-establishment in the infinite is the first stage. The second is the ability to journey back and forth between the infinite and the finite. The mastery of the two constitutes freedom, both freedom ‘from’ and freedom ‘to’.